Think before you judge

This semester alone has been suuuuch an eye opener when it comes to judging or making assumptions about people or judging their behaviour. You simply canot because you have absolutely no idea what that person is going through, what burden they are carryig, what they have been through in their life, what secrets they have bee keeping. I learnt the hard way when I was so quick to judge a friend on her mood ad behaviour only to find out a secret and burden she had been carryig for so many years. This actually happened with two friends with completely different stories ad hardships they have faced. What if I had not give them the time of day because I was too upset to see passed their behaviour? I woder if when people hear my story, they have the same reaction... Like, wow, that really explains a lot about who you are and the way that you behave. I have so may opiions on difficulties in life and how you deal with them. I have been through a lot yet i will never let it define me. It is a part of who I am but I try my best to not blame my childhood or the things i've been through for my actions. We all get to make a decision when tough things happen in life. Do i let it define me in a negative way where I take it out on the world, or do I let it make me stronger and chanel everything you have learnt to help someone else one day. I know i have made some very poor decisions especially in the last 3 years when i was trying to "discover" myself, find myself, create myself. I got pulled into situations i promised myself i would never be in... Now do I blame what i've been through or do i just blame myself for the fact that i knew better. I don't know. These posts of mine will never be deep and intellectual... they'll be deep but more from intellectual because i am still trying to figure everything out. I'll think i believe something then while im writing i find myself questioning that belief. Its frustrating but at the same time, its teaching me so much. Teaching me to critically think. I am loving this idea of getting my feelings down. Back to studying for 3rd year final exams! Eeeeeeeeek.