I used to be an avid blogger

So I am back. Finally have a little breathing space amongst the craziness of 4th year. Still a bit resentful, NO-OONE WARNED US! But that’s beside the point. I am usually one to try be positive, but fail miserably most of the time. Especially in my head. But I can truly say with all my heart that this year has been such a learning experience. I have grown up in the short space of 5 months. Been tested to my absolute limits. Cried so many tears (I didn’t know one human could have so many). It seems a bit selfish to say, while studying a degree meant to enrich the lives of others, and instead I am focussing on my growth. But I think that is what it is with life. The biggest moments and times in our lives while influencing others are the ones that shape us the most. Make us who we are. I have learnt that clichés are sometimes the ONLY way to describe something. I hate clichés, up until now that is. Because I am a walking cliché. For example: 1. There is light at the end of the tunnel. (THERE REALLY IS!) 2. There is always a silver lining. (annnd... there is!!) 3. What doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger. (I’m not dead am I?) 4. Fake it til you make it. (confidence really is key) So that is the last five months in a nutshell. Two blocks down, half way through the third. Never did I ever think that times could go soooooooo FAST but so sloooooooooowly at the same time! I hate wishing my life away, but really, this year needs to end now. It has been a tough road, and I feel like there’s only more challenges ahead. I never thought I would come to the point where accepting failure would be ok for me. But I pushed through that, and its no longer an option. Negativity aside, and the dread that is OT, this has been one of the most incredible years of my life. I have seen how friends can come together and support each other in the most simple yet most beautiful ways (Stine, my special friend driving all the way to Umdloti just to give me a hug when I was having a bad day). Its because we GET it. No-one else gets it. That sometimes you just need someone to sit with you, and say I KNOW-it sucks. This year has taught me to shed the negative “vibes” in your life. It is JUST not worth it. This year has taught me that family is flipping ridiculous. Mine especially, they have lifted me up when I thought all I could do was fall. I have learnt to not be so serious all the time. Why stress over the things that you really have no control over? I realise reading back that I have made this degree sound like the devil’s occupation with all the tears, and no strength, and failing. But it is the complete opposite of that. What we do is amazing. It is a beautiful degree, yet such a strong degree at the same time. Beautifully strong. And it has made me, and my incredible class, beautifully strong. I’ll brag about my degree another time. But for now, know that it is NOT just a degree. It is my life. (Might as well be seeing as it has consumed my life for the past 3 and a half years!)