A personal perspective shift

This is a more personal blog entry. I sit here at my computer with tears running down my face as I come to one of the biggest realisations of my short life. Everything that I have been through in my life was for a specific purpose. Life hasn’t been all roses for me... it’s been tough. I have questioned a lot in my life... why me. Why my family. Doubting the God I had so much faith in. Doubting why I am here. Starting to believe there is no purpose, bad stuff just happens to good people. We’re all here from some crazy coincidence that was never meant to happen. But no. Today my perspective has been shifted. I see the light in so many different ways. We were created for purpose! There was always a small voice inside telling me that “one day I will understand why things happen.” It was such a small voice in my subconscious and today... it resounds with great volume in every corner of my heart. Everything that I have been through has been for a purpose. My dad being a drug addict and my family falling apart because of it... the hurt, confusion and pain all lead up to the events in my life. Me leaving Cape Town, coming to Durban, meeting a little boy with Down Syndrome, being introduced to OT because of it, applying for OT, being a 3rd year student at Newlands Park Centre, being a student to my supervisor who has challenged and motivated every aspect of my potential, meeting my service user who I have, in the smallest tiniest way, had an impact on. Him coming to speak to my whole class with all the confidence in the world. His story met up with mine today. Without his story, without the pain I have been through in life... my perspective would never have changed. The service user put it so wonderfully... he said that he believes that if he hadn’t come to rehab now, been there for 7 weeks already... if he had only come to the rehab on the 1st of October, he doesn’t think he would be alive today. Everything happened so that he could be at the rehab at the right time. His pain, suffering, hate and hurt all led to today where he stepped up and found a part of himself that he is learning to love. How beautiful is that? All of that led to today. Today where he shared his life story, changed his life today and today where so many OT students lives were changed and today, where my perspective has changed so incredibly. My dad, all the pain, hurt, suffering, heart ache, losses, deaths and hitting rock bottom has lead him on a path to self discovery and purpose where he is now touching the lives of addicts. If it had not been for my dad’s pain, hurt, suffering, heart ache, losses, deaths, hitting rock bottom and his addiction... perhaps the lives that have been changed by him would never have been changed. Their lives met up on this crazy path of life and I am so inspired by it. So overwhelmed by the magnitude of this crazy life and why things happen. I know, with all the faith in my heart, that I will come to understand and gain incredible perspective through my life events and how my life events will meet up with others life events and create a beautiful story of life and purpose.